I follow the rhythm and flow of the seasons. It has been a powerful way to acquaint myself with the Divine Feminine in her vastness and multitude of manifestations. It supports me to see myself reflected through the eyes of nature as a mirror of the Divine Feminine within me. Through this practice I find that I allow myself to flow from one flavor of my vast being to another just as she flows from season to season with different energetic qualities. There is no one face of the Feminine. I have discovered that the less I identify with one aspect of her and allow her to come through in her many expressions the more life force I have and the more alive my life becomes. Recently I had a day that was an exquisite example of her flowing through me in her ability to embrace all of life. It was a major wake up call for me and one of those pivotal moments that resulted in a “yes” I can do this. I can be her. I am her!
I work as a private chef for high end clients periodically. One of my jobs took me to Maui, my former home as chef for clients from Moscow. Because it was home for years I still have close friends there. I stayed with a friend whose Mother was suffering from Alzheimer’s. I offered to help care for her while there around my job. After I arrived she went down hill and my days were split between shopping and cooking for clients who paid me to be not only professional but very creative with my food. They were on vacation celebrating life. My food as art was part of this celebration. Before and after this excursion into the feminine expression of life I supported my friend and her mother as she rapidly approached death’s door.
The doorway between the worlds swung open every day as I moved from one reality to the other very much needing to be present for both. The world in which I was staying escalated as we stayed up most the night supporting this elegant woman to let go of her life with peace in her heart. The morning came when she let her life go. I was blessed to be with her in that moment. The daughters, and a couple other women, including myself bathed, anointed, and dressed her body. We honored her passing with such a sacred ritual of the Goddess as a gate keeper between the worlds.
I immediately left this sacred space to shop at the local store, go to my client’s vacation villa, prepare a meal that would dazzle them, support their celebration of a day on Maui that was exhilarating and made them thrilled to be alive. I never mentioned to my clients what my day was like before coming to work.
I was blessed with a day that the Great Divine Feminine offered me with her signature. She owns it all. It is all equally sacred. The more I embrace life and death equally the more alive I feel, the more sacred my life becomes, the more I can embrace her in her entirety. It was a glorious sacred day!
