Embracing the Sacred Feminine in Her Entirety

November 16th, 2010

I follow the rhythm and flow of the seasons. It has been a powerful way to acquaint myself with the Sacred Feminine in her vastness and multitude of manifestations. It supports me to see myself reflected through the eyes of nature as a mirror. Through this practice I allow myself to flow from one flavor of my vast being to another just as she flows from season to season with different energetic qualities. The less I identify with one aspect of her and allow her to come through in her many expressions the more alive my life becomes.

Recently I had a day that was an exquisite example of her flowing through me in her ability to embrace all of life. It was a major wake up call for me and one of those pivotal moments that resulted in a “yes” I can do this. I can be her. I am her!

I work as a private chef for high end clients periodically. One of my jobs took me to Maui, my former home as chef for clients from Moscow. Because it was home for years I still have close friends there. I stayed with a friend whose Mother was suffering from Alzheimer’s. I offered to help care for her while there around my job. After I arrived she went down hill and my days were split between shopping and cooking for clients who paid me to not only be professional but very creative with my food. They were on vacation celebrating life. My food as art was part of this celebration. One moment I was supporting my friend and her mother as she rapidly approached death’s door. The next I was creating meals that nourished my clients on many levels.

The doorway between the worlds swung open every day as I moved from one reality to the other. We stayed up most the night supporting this elegant woman to let go of her life with peace in her heart. The morning came when she let her life go. I was blessed to be with her in that moment. We bathed, anointed, and dressed her body. We honored her passing with a sacred ritual of the Goddess as gate keeper between the worlds.

I immediately left this sacred space to shop, go to my client’s vacation villa, prepare a meal that would dazzle them, and support their celebration of a day that made them thrilled to be alive. I never mentioned to my clients what my day was like before coming to work.

The Great Sacred Feminine offered me a day with her signature. She owns it all. The more I embrace life and death equally the more alive I feel, the more sacred my life becomes, the more I can embrace her in her entirety. It was a glorious sacred day!

Mary Lane

Dear Body

November 11th, 2010

I did not honor the agility, unlimited energy and vibrancy of your youth until it was gone. I did not honor your beauty, sensuality and sexual aliveness of your maiden years until it was gone. I spent years in non appreciation of you, tried to fix you through artificial means, thinking it was your fault I didn’t love myself. Spent the following several years in self hatred for betraying you. Spent the next several years trying to rectify my past relationship with you through the food I have fed you, hoping in some small way this was enough. I feel your appreciation for this level of care as I approach the auspicious passage of my 60th birthday. You have overcome all my ignorance’s and continue to give me the ability to wake up every morning pain free with enough energy to do my hiking, gardening, dancing, living. However, am I truly honoring you enough?

You have selflessly walked with me through every step of my journey in this life, even though I have taken you for granted. Your resilience that has enabled me to come to this 60th year is no longer lost on me. I have traveled enough miles now to gain enough wisdom to know that the day will come when I have to say goodbye to you, my dearest friend that has stood by me no matter what. Without you I could not take this sacred journey, experience the many twists and turns, pleasures and pains that has allowed me to grow and evolve as a soul. Without you I could not experience myself as an expression of the Divine.

I honor my role as steward of your health knowing that every morsel of nourishment I offer you comes from our Beloved Divine Mother. You are made of her, you carry her wisdom, and you obviously carry her compassion. I will honor each breath you take knowing it has been given as a gift from spirit, so that I may know myself.

Instead of waiting until I have moved onto the next phase of my journey that does not include you I am choosing on this day, and every day to give you thanks and treat you as the Divine gift you are in every way. I will listen to your wisdom, honor your intelligence, offer you rest and care as you carry me to your last breath. And, I will celebrate you and never ever consider you “less than” because our time together is temporary. Instead I will cherish every moment we have together, “because,” our time together is temporary.

Your grateful best friend

Mary

Fall, Honoring, Birth, Death

November 1st, 2010

Every fall the energy of “Honoring” comes to the forefront of my consciousness. It is one of the universal spiritual aspects this season highlights. I notice every little nuance in life that reflects someone or something being honored, and more often than not, what is not, or has not been honored, that we are at the affect of now. It flows through my existence like water seeping through the cracks and crevices seeking the deepest ground where it can pool.

It seems like no matter what I am healing, reclaiming, returning, realigning with, it boils down to “Honoring.” How much I honor myself, and everything else in existence.

Lately I have supported friends to have a sacred passage as they left their bodies. These experiences greatly highlighted the lack of honoring of the passage as sacred and deserving of being embraced. Whenever I take notice of something, Pandora opens her box and out flies all the connections to this observation. With this came the lack of honoring our elders.

Currently I am supporting a close friend to have a conscious, normal, natural birthing experience for her and her newborn baby. I am honored to be a part of her journey and will be supporting her through labor. We are attending classes together and being educated on what that can look like.  In the process I have had my eyes opened to the abomination of birth that overran our society for the last 100 years, or so.

I watched a very powerful movie, “The Business of Being Born.”  It stated when we took birthing out of the hands of midwives and put it into the hospitals, lead by surgeons, convincing women they didn’t know how to give birth, there was a big shift in the birthing process. Something women have been doing for millions of years all of a sudden could not be trusted in their hands. Go figure. The body was no longer honored for knowing how to do this, largely because it took too long, and didn’t fit the busy schedule of the hospital staff. How on Earth did we buy into that nonsense?

The recognition of the ultimate take away was unnerving, and brought up so much rage in me. A rage I had carried my entire life. I dug a little deeper with this and realized that the majority of us who were born during this period in history, which, by the way, is still going on, came into this world, NOT BEING HONORED as a sacred being in a sacred way that produced a bond of the deepest love between Mother and child. The Mothers were not honored, and the babies were not honored.

So, how on Earth are we suppose to walk through life honoring ourselves and the world around us? How are we suppose to honor our Mother? I realized to shift this perception of ourselves will take shifting the birthing process back to it’s natural state, supported by those who honor this passage as a sacred event that the Mother, her body, and baby together have the wisdom to accomplish.

Surgeons and hospitals are a wonderful backup if for some reason something goes wrong, which is always a possibility, so we don’t want to throw the baby out with the bath water. Bless them for doing what they are good at. But women have always, since the beginning of time surrounded women who are giving birth. This is a feminine trait that is hardwired. Maybe if we give this sacred passage along with the passage of leaving this world back to the feminine, over time we will have a society that is capable of honoring themselves, one another, and the world around them. (This includes men who are balanced and embrace this side of themselves.)

Then maybe birth and death can return to the ultimate orgasmic experience in life that it was designed to be, instead of infused with fear and confusion.

I am thrilled to also become aware that a large movement toward bringing both these passages back into the realm of the sacred is gaining momentum. Consider opening to this realm and breath as much life into it as possible, so we can all return to our birth right of being honored as a sacred being, brought into a sacred life, on a sacred Earth, that we and all sentient beings deserve. Imagine what that would do for the neighborhood!

I myself plan to give myself a rebirthing experience of honoring myself for my upcoming 60th birthday with the attitude, that it is never to late to have an orgasmic, sacred birth.

Divine Nourishment Virtual Women’s Circle

October 28th, 2010

I am inviting those who have bought my book, Divine Nourishment, A Woman’s Sacred Journey with Food to join me for an opportunity to discuss topics and chapters as a way to support one another to integrate whatever material resonates with you. You may join the circle and participate as much or as little as you like. It is free and open.

This is a forum for creating a gathering of those who are interested in using some of the tools in the book, or need a place to share while using the book to support their healing, growth and empowerment while aligning themselves with the wisdom of the Earth through seasonal nourishment and living.

Whether you have questions about how to see yourself through the eyes of nature, how to cook one of the recipes, or just want to be heard and seen as you navigate your way out of the shadows, integrate, and offer your gifts we can all support one another through our own experiences.  We don’t all have a group to gather with in our neighborhood, so I am offering this virtual group.

If you would like to join and do not have the book yet, please go to my “buy the book” page on my web site www.divinenourishment.net. It will link you to Amazon

You may subscribe to http://groups.yahoo.com/group/divinenourishment/join

If you have questions or trouble doing this please contact mary@divinenourishment.net

Hot-and-Sour Pumpkin Soup

October 25th, 2010

Great seasonal recipe for moving things through the body and supporting your fall letting go.

Happy Samhain!

yield: Makes 6 to 8 servings, or about 10 cups

Active time: 40 min Start to finish: 1 1/2 hr

1 large onion, coarsely chopped

1 tablespoon chopped garlic

1 tablespoon chopped peeled fresh ginger

3 tablespoons vegetable oil

1 (3-lb) sugar or cheese pumpkin, peeled, seeded, and cut into 1-inch cubes (6 cups)

1 cup dry white wine

2 qt vegetable stock

6 lemongrass stalks (bottom 5 inches only), coarsely chopped

1 (1-inch) piece galangal (thawed if frozen), peeled and coarsely chopped

3 to 5 fresh (1 1/2-inch) Thai chiles or 2 fresh jalapeño chiles, trimmed and coarsely chopped (seed chiles if a milder flavor is desired)

4 kaffir lime leaves (fresh or frozen)

1/3 cup fresh lime juice

1/4 cup Asian fish sauce

Cook onion, garlic, and ginger in 1 tablespoon oil in a 5-quart heavy pot over moderate heat, covered, stirring occasionally, until onion is softened, about 4 minutes. Add pumpkin and wine and boil, uncovered, until wine is reduced by about half, about 5 minutes. Stir in stock and simmer, covered, until pumpkin is tender, about 20 minutes.

Heat remaining tablespoon oil in a 10-inch heavy skillet over moderately high heat until hot but not smoking, then sauté lemongrass, galangal, and chiles to taste, stirring, until lightly browned, about 1 minute. Remove from heat.

PurĂ©e pumpkin mixture in batches (use caution when blending hot liquids) and return to pot. Stir in lemongrass mixture, lime leaves, lime juice, and fish sauce.It’s true what they say. Embrace and share the feelings that arise in a creative way, put it into art, honor it, and it shifts. I love it. Simmer, uncovered, 20 minutes. Pour soup through a sieve, discarding solids, and season well with salt and pepper.

Fall, Grief, Ancestors

October 24th, 2010

According to the Taoist interpretation of the language of nature the autumn season ignites particular emotions, spiritual aspects of ourselves and is connected to the lung and colon organ systems. The colon relates to our ability to let go, it cleanses the old sludge from the body, carrying with it the emotional mindset of old beliefs that no longer serve us. The lungs hold the grief we carry. They store it until the time comes when we are ready to feel it, process it, and let it go. A spiritual aspect of this season relates to our ability to honor ourselves, spirit, and all that is in our world as sacred. This is coupled with separating the wheat from the chaff and harvesting the gifts from the previous cycle. This knowledge was integrated and embodied when both feminine and masculine energetic qualities were equally honored in all ancient cultures. It was a time when we were just of the Earth.

I have watched and followed this seasonal flow for many years and witnessed with awe the integration of the multi-dimensional weaving of these aspects of myself and my journey. Each year it takes me to a deeper layer of understanding of my vast unfolding, and each season I can feel this language expressing itself through my being.

If I hadn’t studied this ancient map I would wonder why I feel grief all of a sudden when the trees begin to let go of their leaves. I would try to hang onto the feelings I was just experiencing a short season ago and try to fix myself, attempting to carry on as before when I was frolicking in the summer. I would not be able to feel the sweetness of these emotions and honor them.

Which brings me right to the point.  When the leaves begin to fall I feel myself drop a little deeper inside myself. Every time I drop in it is obvious that I carry a deep well of grief. A grief that runs so deep and wide I can’t label it. A grief that spills beyond the boundaries of my own soul and flows into the ancestral line of my European descent. Lifetimes of both victim and perpetrator of atrocities that have plagued and crippled our Divine connection as an ancient indigenous culture. Yes, we too were an indigenous culture with a deep connection with spirit, and the sacredness of the Earth.

I feel the grief on my parents, Grandparents, their grandparents and beyond. I feel the pain of the accumulated suffering passed down through the generations without resolve and honoring of who we are and where we come from. I grieve as a I watch myself and others look to the multitude of indigenous cultures for the answers instead of reclaiming our own wisdom that was lost along the way. I grieve for the ancestors who have been shunned and ignored as we run from our deep shame simply for being part of a lineage that has lost it’s way after such a long tumultuous journey.

I grieve for the shame I carry and witness the belief that I must not embody this sought after wisdom simply because I am a white woman from a European ancestral line. I grieve the shame I carry for the blame I place upon myself from past life times that has contributed to the wounding of this ancestry. I grieve how carrying this ancestral pain has affected my life as a woman. I grieve how difficult it is to heal.

This season is about honoring. I am honoring my grief. I am embracing it, and I am allowing it to heal me as it opens my heart to compassion for myself and others. I am receiving the support from my ancestors to heal, knowing that when I heal, they heal, and the next generation can experience life without this long line of unhealed pain they are the accumulation of.

If I don’t slow down when this season arrives and allow myself to honor the grief as it arises the healing cannot take place. As I honor myself more I realize I cannot honor myself without honoring my ancestors. I chose this line of ancestors to be a part of in this lifetime. We are all counting on one another to heal this lineage. This lineage has much to grieve, much to heal, much to reclaim, and much to offer. Sharing this is a way for me to honor the grief and heavy heart I have been feeling this fall. Let go of the shame for even having grief, bring it out of the shadows, bring it into the light, and allow it to be. It is part of reclaiming myself as a valuable contribution to life.

If you can relate to this I welcome your thoughts.

Optimum Cooking Methods for Fall

October 13th, 2010

Fall is the beginning of our energy’s movement inward. It is the time of year when produce that is in season requires a longer period of cooking compared to the foods of summer that can be eaten raw or quickly cooked.

The weather is cooling down, and we naturally want to begin making soups or oven and stovetop braised stews, etc, with the root crops and cold-weather greens that are in season. It is the time when oven-roasted meats are appropriate. Not only does this warm our body, it warms our home which we naturally avoided in the summer months, but welcome in the fall.

These cooking methods bring warmth into our body so our life force is not consumed trying to stay warm. It is the season when we dry, can, and store foods from our harvest for winter. These methods of preservation have a warming effect energetically, making these foods appropriate for the colder months.

I am enjoying the fall harvest and the bounty of sweet potatoes and butternut squash from my garden. So I am making soups in various forms with these ingredients and putting some away for winter. Here are some suggestions from the fall harvest for soups, etc. The sweetness of the squash and potatoes go nicely with the pungent spices and support the lungs and colon. This is the season to do a gentle colon cleanse, so these dishes lend themselves to supporting this.

*Cubed butternut squash and sweet potato with red and white kidney beans, onion, garlic, roasted poblano chilis, cumin, coriander, oregano, cilantro, veg stock. Makes a great autumn soup.

*Pureed soup of butternut squash with onion, garlic, spice grind of fennel seed, cumin, coriander, turmeric, red chili powder, salt and white pepper.

*Roasted butternut squash and sweet potato with fennel bulb as a side dish

Fall, Honoring, Letting Go

October 4th, 2010

We are obviously going through a collective transformation. Our lack of respectful relationship with our physical world has hit a critical stage. For some it has been a catalyst for an awakening and are taking steps to rectify this. I’m one of the many who have discovered this is as a life path. The movement in this direction is gaining momentum at an exciting pace. Being a part of this transformation and finding our gifts that contribute to this momentum is an exhilarating honor.

Believe it or not we have support in how to navigate this deep transformation from the very being we are trying to save. Our Mother Earth. Nature goes through a life, death, rebirth transformation every yearly cycle in an intelligent way that supports the continuation of life, and evolution. This is not news to most. However, what many are just beginning to realize in the modern world is that our human journey is a self similar reflection of this natural process, not just as a physical being who is born, lives and dies, but as a spiritual being who is growing as well. When we align with it in how we live, eat and think our physical, emotional AND spiritual growth is supported by an immensely intelligent Divine being. Maybe our Mother really does know what she is talking about.

So how does this relate to our daily lives in a practical way that we can wrap ourselves around and put into practice? A basic step toward aligning with this natural map for transformation is to eat organically grown seasonal local foods with appropriate cooking methods. These foods embody the energetic qualities for aligning with this natural seasonal energetic wave of transformation where we live.

Natural seasonal local foods support us to go inward when nature does, come out when nature does, let go of what no longer serves us, use it as compost, just as nature does, reap our harvest as a result of it, rebuild, reflect and spring forward with a new awareness of who we are while honoring the process of life continuing as a result of a death of some kind. Whether it be the death of an old belief system, the death of a cycle in our life, the death of a plant or animal to nourish us so we can take this journey, or the eventual death of our body.

The collective transformation we are going through now is creating the death of a massive societal set of beliefs and actions. We can let go of these old beliefs and naturally evolve to a higher consciousness in which to build a modern society that aligns with our natural world–the world that is already here, waiting for us to honor enough to actually live by her wisdom. This does not mean we all need to retreat to the woods and darn our skids. This energetic flow is available, accessible and applicable everywhere.

Natural seasonal, local foods are being harvested not only on rural farms, but inner city community lots. Local farmers markets are cropping up in communities of all sizes. The energy around this is building at a rapid pace that is awesome. Preserving local foods in ways that support the warming of our body in the colder months instead of eating the same foods grown in the opposite hemisphere and shipped will support us to stay aligned with the energetic qualities of the current season.

In the Taoist 5 Element System fall is a time for letting go after the harvest of the previous cycle and prepare ourselves to enter the winter months. When we can trust this process we can receive the gifts waiting for us in the winter months. When we can honor all the seasons of the year and our life the ride is much more enjoyable.

When we honor the Earth and eat the foods according to her wisdom we embody her wisdom. That is when we can honor our own body’s wisdom enough to trust it to know what it needs when regardless of what the latest diet trend is.

When we are aligned with the current of the Earth’s natural creative energy we can let go and trust the current to carry us through this cycle. We just have to show up and allow. We can enjoy the journey with all it’s flavors.

Fall Tonic

October 1st, 2010

This is a fall tonic I created that my students fell in love with. I was lucky enough to be able to gather the herbs in the wild and use lemon verbena from my garden, which brought a powerful wild life force to the tonic. Combine dried herbs and flax seeds. Store dried herb mixture in a glass jar with tight-fitting lid. Make an infusion steeped with boiled water for a cup of tea. One or two cups of this tea a day supports you during the fall months. It is in my book, “Divine Nourishment.”

1 cup Nettles

1 cup Goldenrod

1/2 cup Lemon Verbena/or Lemon Balm

1/2 cup Mugwort

1 cup Mullein

1/4 cup Flax Seed

Nettles — Enriches liver yin, nourishes and cleanses the blood, relieves fatigue, regulates metabolism, restores adrenals and thyroid, restores lungs, promotes expectoration, relieves coughing, promotes detoxification, clears eczema, reduces tumors, dissolves deposits and stones. Drains fluid congestion in liver and kidneys, relieves edema.

Goldenrod — Relieves chronic skin conditions, resolves toxicosis, nourishes and restores the kidneys, clears bladder and kidney damp heat, reduces intestinal infections.

Lemon Verbena —  Supports digestion, lemon flavor nourishes the liver.

Mugwort — Supports the movement of stuck energy, tonifies chi, stimulates digestion, drains fluid congestion, promotes sweating, dispels wind damp/cold, clears damp heat, reduces inflammation and clears intestinal parasites.

Mullein — Nourishes lung yin, moistens dryness, relieves coughing, promotes expectoration, resolves phlegm, circulates lung chi, clears damp heat, clears toxic heat, removes lymph congestion and benefits the skin

Flax Seed — Strong source of omega-3, anti-oxidant, supports the intestines to cleanse and matter to slide through.

Figs

September 16th, 2010

I love Figs. They are hard to improve upon, so I keep my preparations simple. Following are two simple ways I prepare fresh figs when I am blessed enough to have them.

1. Cut your fresh figs in half lengthwise. Top them with a small dollop of chevre goat cheese and put them on the grill skin side down for just a couple minutes. They cook fast and the cheese softens quickly if you put the lid on the grill. A little fresh thyme mixed in with the goat cheese is a nice addition. Serve immediately.

2. Place about 1 1/2 cups sweet Marsala wine in a pan with a sweetener of your choice. I don’t like foods real sweet, so I go light. Simmer for about 5 minutes uncovered. Turn off heat and place about 10 fresh figs cut in half into the sweetened wine, stir and turn off heat. Let them sit in the wine for about an hour or more, stirring gently occasionally to make sure they are all getting coated. Remove figs with a slotted spoon and reduce liquid to a syrup. You can serve the figs alone drizzled with the syrup or over something like vanilla ice cream drizzled with syrup. Very simple, very delicious.

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